my
dad my
dad hi,my name is nici,,,,,,,im
here not to tell my story ,,,its my dads story ,but his not here any more so
i thought i would do this for him,,his name was barie,and he caught polio when
he was just 3 years old,,,he was such a brave little boy ,,when my nana [who
is 96 ]tells me the story of how he had to be left alone and all he wanted was
his mum,,it brakes my heart,,any way he had post polio really bad,,but he did
not go into the iron lung,,he had braces and all of those things,,and when he
was 18 he spent 18 months in hospital while they moved a bone from his leg into
his back which curved him somewhat and he had a very strong limp,,,my nana nursed
him himself and she is such a lovely person,,one of the best,,,all through my
child hood i never noticed any of these limps and things as ,well he was my
dad and i loved him so much,,,he still did everything all the other dads did,,he
played cricket with my brother ,,,joined the football club and was presadent
there and he did maney wonderful things ,,he even joined the commitee for brownies,,,he
had maney wonderful friends and our house always had many visitors,,he was great
with the jokes and he never let us down,,he never stopped,,he just kept going,,he
always told my brother and i ,,never give up ,,,follow your dreams,,,and you
know he never conplained ,,he was just the best,,when ever we asked him if he
was hurting he just smiled and changed the subject,,,i just wish i could of
done something,,he wouldent even slow down at work,,and he finnished work at
retirment age,,,,after this he started to get slow,,,and then came the walking
stick and then a walker,,,they said it was pps,,,my dad just rolled his eyes,,like
he always did and said that he beat it before and will do again,,,when he was
told that there was no cure,,,he was silant and then said that it will never
break his spirit,,and you know it never did,,wheen he had to go into a wheel
chair he zipped every where,,time went on and you could see he was finding things
harder ,but he was so independent that we just had to let him do as much as
he can,,,just before the end he was finding it hard to breath and one night
he just told my mum to ring the ambulance,,,my mum new as he has never said
anything like this before that he was real ill,,by the time i got to hospital
he was right under and could not hear my begging to wake up,,i was devestated,,he
caught phinomia,,,as you have all relised ,i can not spell,,,[but who cares,]they
put him on life support to give his lungs a rest to try to get better,,,he tried
,,i know he did,,,when they let him wake up he was so sick,,,,all we could do
was sing to him and hold him and tell him we loved him,,,he even smiled ,,,,9
days after he went to hospital my dad made the decisoin he wanted to go,,,,i
beged him not to let go,,,,but he said it was time and he loved us but he was
tired ,,you see he lived in the same house with my mum 4 47 years and when he
found out he could not go home again i think that was made up his mind and i
think we all knew that there was no chance as his lungs kept collapsing,,saying
goodbye was the hardest thing that i have ever done,,,,,,yet im so glad i had
the chance to do this and it was a specail moment ,,i asked him if he was scared
and he looked me in the eye and said no,,and he poined over my shoulder,,,,now
mind you my father never believed in anything like that,,,it was me that did,,,,one
whole hour i was there just saying goodbye and so maney things where said between
father and daughter,,,i treasure the whole time of itlooking back,,,when they
turned life support off it took about 30 minutes and he was asleep,,,,the doctor
said it might take a couple of days ,,when he left so fast i then knew it was
time 4 him,,,i miss him so much and so does my brother and mum and all his 9
grandkids,,they really miss there poppy,,,but i know his o.k now ,,like i told
him before he went ,,there will always be him in all of us as what he taught
us as kids we in turn tell ours,,,so he will still be there,,,,in everything,,,he
smiled at this and nodded,,,i loved him,,,he was everything to us,,,its been
6 weeks now and i know time will make us smile again,,thanks 4 letting me get
this writtn down,,i think it will help,,,love nici,,,
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